Life?

There I say it, having hope hurts. People always tell me "don't give up" "you will find someone who will love you for who you are blad blad blad blad" I am so tired and hurt. I don't want it, I don't want hope. I don't want to believe in love. I don't want to give it a second chance I don't want to try. I don't want to wait. I don't want to hope. Wouldn't it be better if I just have no hope at all? No interest in love, no interest in life. No interest in moving on. I wouldn't have to hurt so damn much. "Hope gave me the power to fight for whatever I am destined to lose" "Hope makes me fly high then let faith pushes me down" "Hope brought me flowers with poisonous smell" "Hope holds my hand up the mountain to bury me there" So many battles, I'm starting to believe there's no winning. I don't wanna text another guy, I don't wanna go on another...

Here a collection what I wrote, that's so-called poetry. Love, Death and Issue,                                                                            Cr:  Haenuli artworks We kiss in black and white I turn him pink in the daylight And I- love him with all my might. The real roses in my room died But the love he gave me still survived And new roses- grew inside. The Language I use to speak with you Is the language I speak with God To pray for flesh and blood Of those who I once loved. Love and I will never meet Just as the sun chasing after the moon Standing over each other but no hand to reach Fear of burning if touches each other Love and I will never meet one another. At 12pm I text my parents I'm going out and I'll be back before the dark To write a letter about m...