Love; Having hope hurts

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There I say it, having hope hurts.
People always tell me "don't give up" "you will find someone who will love you for who you are blad blad blad blad"

I am so tired and hurt.
I don't want it, I don't want hope.
I don't want to believe in love.
I don't want to give it a second chance
I don't want to try.
I don't want to wait.
I don't want to hope.

Wouldn't it be better if I just have no hope at all?
No interest in love, no interest in life.
No interest in moving on.

I wouldn't have to hurt so damn much.

"Hope gave me the power to fight for whatever I am destined to lose"

"Hope makes me fly high then let faith pushes me down"

"Hope brought me flowers with poisonous smell"

"Hope holds my hand up the mountain to bury me there"

So many battles, I'm starting to believe there's no winning.


I don't wanna text another guy,
I don't wanna go on another date.

I wanna just be fucking done with it.
But I can't
Hope makes me thrive.

No matter how many times I died.
Hope keep bringing me back.
Just to die again.

-Annoying

Can I just get a break
Can I just not have hope for a second
Can I just rest my heart
Can I just rest my head
Can I just lay down and die?

"Hope just gonna let me cry"

I hate this cycle, continuing, over and over again.
Just because I have hope.

- Annoying

There are days where I am glad Hope is still by my side.
There are days when I hope to not cry.

- Annoying

I know it's hard to always thrive.
To always fly.
To always let your love dive.
Into the ocean of ....?
I don't know.

I honestly don't know.
I myself am also still stuck on the sky.
Don't know how I am still survived.

- Annoying

I hope you find a way
To use Hope in a better way
And not let its negative stay.

While I will still try
Try on my side
To let go of the sighs
And Just to love, survive.

Thank you
- Love
Youself.

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