Life?

So I just got a boyfriend. it's a miracle I know and I don't know how it happened. It just happened. Looking back at all the stories I wrote about love and so on, I feel so weird. I don't know how to explain but this is just something I have been looking forward to. And how when I have it, it's great. credit: Nickels So yes everything is going well so far, I am handling all of my issues better than I thought. The depression comes and goes like aways but I manage to pull myself out of the blue when the water comes high. Although there is day went my mood swing went crazy and he didn't really know how to deal with it. But I look at it this way. My mental health, my problem. I shouldn't depend on my boyfriend to make me feel better, And my boyfriend should not feel likes he needs to make me feel better. Depression is weird, but I am coping well with it as I always have. The mood swings are crazy but that is just how it is and we both are ha...

I was in the province for a month and I just got back to the city. Everything is so similar yet different. I can almost recognize everything but nothing at the same time. It's a strange feeling, I don't know what it is. Laying on my bed, I started to go through tinder and grinder. Not sure what I'm looking for but when people asked, I say "dates" But deep down, I actually know what I want. I don't know why I can't admit it. But I want romantic love from every love story you've ever heard of. From the tragic young love of Romeo and Juliet to the teenage drama movie Love, Simon. That is what I want to experience, The purest form of love, That only exists in movies. That feeling of firework around you, And butterflies in the stomach. Those are the feeling I want to feel. I sound like a child even tho I am 19. For a person who already finishes college and is already making a living. Why do I still believe in fairy tales? Am I not old eno...