Time; Who am I now?

-
It’s been 19 years since I am born. 

So Hi, I'm Mony currently 19 years old and I am a male homosexual.
I know these basic information about myself which I tell people so they know who I am.
But do I know who I am?

I’ve been through a lot in life.
I’ve changed myself in so many ways compared to last year or compared to 5 years ago.
I’ve always been changing, changing who I am.

Credit: Kai Pejcha 

We are always changing, day by day.
And we are always evolving, evolving into another stage in our life.
Where we are now comforted with this.
Where we are now not comforted with that.

We are always changing, day by day.
And we are always developing, developing ourselves.
Where are now we are becoming more of ourselves.
Where are now we are becoming less of our past self.

I think I know who I am now.
But I know I will change again in the possible year and that’s okay.

I know it’s hard to figure out who you are while you keep changing every day.
Some of us find ourselves faster than others.
Some of us take more time than others.
And that is okay.

The point of this secret satellite is for you to have comfort even if you don’t know who you are.
That is okay to be confused during this moment of your life.
That is perfectly fine to not understand yourself yet.
Stop stressing over it.

Every great mind takes time to find themselves.
It takes time to find who you are.
And if you did find yourself.
Don’t be afraid that you will change again because you will
And you will find yourself again.

Life is like that.

I am Mony, currently 19 years old and a male homosexual.
Who loves to do public speaking, playing games and love to teach his young students about science
Who drinks a lot and go out a lot
Who loves writing and the color pink
Who has mental issues that he needs to fix
And that’s me, that is who I am now.

Maybe I won’t like games or public speaking again in the next 3 years.
Who knows?
All I know is I can’t wait to see who I will become In the future.

Have faith,
I believe we are all destined for something great.

Love,
Yourself

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Anxiety; insecurity ruin my relationship

-
Image
So I just got a boyfriend. it's a miracle I know and I don't know how it happened. It just happened. Looking back at all the stories I wrote about love and so on, I feel so weird. I don't know how to explain but this is just something I have been looking forward to. And how when I have it, it's great. credit: Nickels So yes everything is going well so far, I am handling all of my issues better than I thought. The depression comes and goes like aways but I manage to pull myself out of the blue when the water comes high. Although there is day went my mood swing went crazy and he didn't really know how to deal with it. But I look at it this way. My mental health, my problem. I shouldn't depend on my boyfriend to make me feel better, And my boyfriend should not feel likes he needs to make me feel better. Depression is weird, but I am coping well with it as I always have. The mood swings are crazy but that is just how it is and we both are ha...
Read more

Cambodia; Drinking Culture

-
Image
I hate Cambodian drinking culture, I know hate is a strong word but yes. I hate the way some Cambodian people drink alcohol.  Okay so hear me out, I am a Cambodian and have been living in Cambodia ever since I was born.  And I can say I am born into the culture but the drinking culture is very toxic for me. For some reason every time SOME Cambodian people drink they always act like it's a competition to show how manly they are, how much they can drink and most importantly how fucking drunk they are.  And the most annoying part of all is PUSHING OTHER PEOPLE TO DRINK as crazy as they are.  And the stupidest part is when the people don't drink as much as them THEY GET MAD. Real-life experience down below; There was this one time at a birthday party of my so called "friend". They force me to drink to a point where they hold me down, push open my mouth and start pouring alcohol into my throat.  Like bitch what the fuck? I hate that, I hate that so much. Pushing and ...
Read more

Secret Satellite: My open letter to writing out your feeling.

-
Image
Writing has some sort of magic that allows me to concentrate and digest my feelings. Hi, it's been a while. How have you been? - Has your feeling filled up like the sky full of stars? Or has it been suppressed down into earth's core? No matter what it is, I hope you are eating them well.  It's 2024, and this is my attempt to reconnect to my past self through sending out the secret satellite that I used to send out every time I felt overwhelmed. "This used to be my therapy" I've always felt good after writing out my feelings and of course, I am feeling some type of way while writing this - and of course, I'm looking to feel good after writing this. Time flow as the river with departure to different streams, I stopped writing out my feelings because I found other ways to manage, express and digest my feelings.  For example; I start facing my feelings more, asking questions, confronting people and well - dismissing them.  I would like to say that I got better...
Read more